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Joe-Joe, Jeff, Steve.....whoever the fuck your ball-less ass is:

Let me just add:

I take full responsibility for myself and whatever happens to me in the
water, as I am the ONLY one that can decide whether or not I get in the
water.  To say otherwise and try to blame somone else is totally lame and a
bullshit excuse.  George has always said, "your body (physical shape, mind,
attitude, etc, etc.) is your most important piece of equipment, take care of
that and everything else will fall into place."  He is absolutely right on
this.  I took care of the other gear, but not the most important piece.  This
was nobody's fault but my own.  Yet the arm chair quaterbacks and superstroke
cyberdivers will try to pin the blame on someone else out of jealousy or for
what ever reason............Well, what does that say about them and thier
sense of responsibility?  Not someone that I would want to assosciate with in
general, let alone in the water.   You want to point the finger.....point it
me, it was my actions that caused this.  Furthermore, why should George be
critisized for giving several people (not just me) a chance to participate in
a project?  He shouldn't.  He gave many people an opportunity to participate,
which is more than I can say for the vast majority.  And, who is openly
sharing the information they have?  I don't see to many other people doing
that, but I do see a lot of mis-information.  Now you see why I get so
fucking irate when people like Rennaker say that he left his buddy.  What
kind of horse shit is that?  Total fucking bullshit.  You do what ever you
have to do to get your buddy home, because some time (for what ever reason)
it could be YOUR ass.  That is one of the finer points of team work which so
many often miss.  

STROKE!! you might say.  Actually, it does not quite fit into the definition
of a stroke (Stupid fuck is more appropriate, see Bob Wolov's previous post)
as a stroke is self satisfied with the way he is doing things and is
unwilling to change.  Furthemore, a stroke is usually unaware that he has a
problem to begin with.  I am always looking for ways to do it better,
quicker, smoother, etc, etc.  And I am not satisfied with "just getting by"
or "just making it work".  I want it to work smooth, effectivley, and
perfect.  Since very few things are perfect in life, I am always looking to
see how I can do it better.  But call me what you will.........to my face.  

I did drive all night to get there, and I was happy to be there.  Live in NY
for awhile and you will see what I mean.  Driving all night, and doing a
three hour shift, ....yeah, you tend not to think the best, and your mind
gets alittle warped.  That became clearly eveident in several of my actions,
most importantly in the water.  Is this an excuse?  NO!!  I fucked up, .....
shit happenes.  Don't you think I would do anything to go back and do it over
again?  Sure I would, but time just does not work that way........ I can only
go on from here and say "OK, how can I do better next time".  This is what I
knew I had to do the moment it happened.  

You guys have a problem with me jumping on people's asses for shit like
leaving you buddy, or diving like a complete clusterfuck.  Tough shit.  I am
living proof as to WHY you do it right and WHY you do not violate rule number
one, think about it.  

Mike
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